One is the lonliest number?

I think 0 may be worse but there are plenty of songs that disagree.

So the hurricane is coming, or so they say. My roof is leaking so lets hope tomorrow isnt as bad as they say it will be.

Women are trouble. This ive learned over the past few months, though i knew it for the past few years as well. Ive been helping the ex with some computer problems and in the end have found some pictures of her and her gf (though she never refuses to use the word gf when around me). I understand not knowing what you want in life. I understand being fickle, and attracted to other people. Same thing happened to me a while back. I was attracted to someone else, but I didnt act upon it. She did. We broke up becuase she wanted to have sex with someone else. And now she is. One of the pictures was labeled "my love" which i wouldnt mind as much if she wasnt still fucking with me and telling me how much she missed everything.

Dont say you miss me, dont say you miss our life, especially if your off fucking around, and spending a hurricane weekend in Brooklyn with this girl. Honesty hurts, but at least its honest. I wouldnt be holding on to something if I knew there was nothing there in the long run. So just tell me the truth. Dont be fickle just for the fact that you can have 2 things at one time. Let me move on. Stop texting me, stop flirting with me, just let me be. This is one of the hardest things I have ever gone through and i feel like it just wont die.

One of my friends asked me yesterday, is this really what you want. I know the heart wants what it wants. And i know you dont ever just "get over" something. And until I saw these pictures, i was ready to let the infidelity go, and get back if she just said she wanted to. But she never will. Not until Im done and over it anyways. And now knowing that she loved this girl (photos were tiled My love) how could i ever really go back? A fling is one thing, love is another.

My only question is how does one move on, and not be shy and conservitive. Its so much easier when you were flirting beforehand, and had something waiting after a breakup, but i didnt have that. All i have left is insecurity, and doubt. The worst things to satrt first dates off of.

I dont mind who I am but its times likes this I has 5'6, 110 llbs, becuase its much easier for people to want you and check you out under those circumstances.

Goodnight all. Stay dry through this rain